Today is Day #23 of my Biggest Loser Arkansas journey. It has been very challenging so far! I asked Max, one of my personal trainers, if this was going to get easier. He said “Yes it is…then we are going to make it harder!”
Isn’t that how life goes? Just when you think it’s getting easy, someone ups the ante and you have to work through something new and more difficult.
This week, I have hit a wall. Plain and simple, I have to break through this foggy mess and get myself refocused and ready to tackle yet another day and another workout.
GETTING FAT IS EASY!!!
At first, I hesitated in even writing this, because I must be the one with the brave face. I can’t show weakness because how would that motivate you to make you think you can do this too? Well, friend, the fact is this is hard! Getting fat is easy!!! Taking it off is not. But let me tell you this, I am the biggest weenie out there and if I can do this so can you. My pastor likes to quote a friend who said “No pain, no gain? Heck no pain, means no pain right?” and boy can’t we all relate.
BORED BORED BORED BORED did I say BORED???
The whole process is getting a bit mundane. I get up, get kids to school, eat breakfast, go to gym, come home shower, dress, eat lunch, go to Little Rock gym, Personal Trainers kick my butt, come home make dinner, walk, sleep, wake up, repeat…ugh! Boring!
I don’t need people to tell me I can do this. I’m not writing this for you to give me a pep talk and pick me up! I’m writing this so you know, realistically, hitting a wall is going to happen! Hitting a wall doesn’t mean you are weak. It doesn’t mean you are not going to succeed. It doesn’t mean you are not able to do this. It means that you are being honest, truthful, and realistic with yourself and your journey. It means that you are human. Again, I KNOW I can do this and I WILL do this, and YOU CAN DO IT TOO. But, right now, I am so bored!
I don’t want to walk, I don’t want to go to the gym 2 times a day. I don’t want to eat healthy food. I want a hotdog, a pizza, some freaking chocolate…SERIOUSLY. Um, yep! That’s me being completely honest.
But, with that being said, after I ate my boring healthy breakfast, I took a long walk. When I started, it was so foggy outside. I started thinking of my wall as the fog. The stupid fog hanging over me and weighing me down. Telling me to take a nap instead of going to the gym. The stupid fog telling me to go eat some chocolate, you know it would be oh so yummy! Stupid fog.
Sometimes in life, things are hard. Being a christian, doesn’t mean God swoops in and saves the day any time things get tough. God uses walls, difficult times, “the fog” to teach you something. That’s how you learn and grow and become a better person and a stronger christian. The fog is there for you to work through. We do not have perfect vision, but God does! We can trust in Him and know He’s got this. He always has it!
I have worked through some difficult things in my life. Much more difficult than some stairs in an old building. God has always been there, waiting for me, holding me, and walking with me. This situation is no different. This is not anywhere near dramatic as some of the happenings in my life, but you know what? God has this, just like he had all that. He can move mountains! What is my little wall when I give it to Him? Nothing but fog that I can walk right through.
JUST KEEP WALKING…JUST KEEP GOING
As I continued my walk, the fog lifted more and more and the sun started breaking through. I noticed my brand new workout pants. I had bought them a couple sizes smaller than I normally would because after all, I am shrinking. The pants are getting baggy. I thought about yesterday and how many outfits I tried on to go to the News Broadcast (yeah, I’m that girl too) and how many of them didn’t fit right anymore. I thought about how I was starting to feel comfortable once again in my own skin. I saw hope. Psalms 62:5 “Find rest O my soul, in God alone; my hope comes from Him”
So yes, you are going to hit a wall. The fog is going to swoop in and surround you. But know, this too shall pass. You have this. Trust that God will carry you through this, cause He is that cool! In the end of it all, I have faith and hope and I know the Son eventually breaks through the fog.
I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength & that is that!